You contemplate life
God
The Catholic Church
December 2002
January 2003
 

The Catholic Church is wrought with scandal. No one wants to point fingers, for your liable to get bit by one of the many loyal priests that dwell in the dungeons of the Vatican. The question arises, is this a gay issue? Yes. Yes this is a gay issue. Is this an issue of whether a gay man is more likely to molest a young boy? No. The reality then in my eyes is this. A child is told from a young age that homosexuality is bad, evil, unacceptable in the eyes of GOD. The same child is brought to church at a very young age. Shown the ways of the lord. They spend their entire life practicing a wholesome Catholic life. Walk when the light turns green, stop when the light turns red. Read the good book and live the good life. At thirteen years of age, this same child realized he is looking at boys more than girls. What does the boy do? Bury his feelings, his desires, And his Natural Selection? For unknown reasons he has been chosen by nature to only be sexually attracted to the same sex. I have a theory on homosexuality. Nature supplies us with disease. Medicine has tried everything to eliminate disease from the equation of life. This forces nature to choose ulterior routes for population control. What better than same sex attraction? This is a different discussion but nevertheless, important to the understanding of nature. The problem is obvious, if you fuck with the fundamental desires of a human being. Try to eliminate their natural wants from their body. Tell them one direction is evil; it's likely they will travel in the opposite direction, a priest. A man devoted to the god they have studied for so many years. A man driven by kindness, a man giving his soul and life to his society. Why? Fear, Fear of his own reality and desires. A reality he will no longer have to face, by taking this vow. Though that which he wants surrounds him. And to make the situation bleaker, much of what surrounds him are young boys. Young boys looking to him for guidance and truth. This brings him back to his childhood and those first erotic memories that he held. That young boy he once was, wanting so badly to be able to express his wants and needs, Yet frozen still by his upbringing. Lines he fears and will never cross. At least not until he has a victim unable to speak. Unable to say no. Unable to disclose the darkness that hides inside this poor man. Sad really, a person so plagued by conditioning he is forced to take his sexual frustration out on a vulnerable child. The lack of action within the Catholic Church is a testament to its sad truth. Consumed by its wealth and self-grandeur, this dinosaur stands hoping to be unaffected by the reality of pain that surrounds its members. Too proud to bow its head in shame. To wealthy to shrivel up and die. A society of people once thought to be in human in their devotion now faces the simple fact that we are all human. You can run as far as you like, though if caught it may be worse than if you had never began running in the first place. Stop running, be who you are. Be true. At least as true as you can be.